by:(LovelyDray)

I’m going to start playing piano again & I will be better than I ever was.

My fiance is going to finally tell my parents that we’re getting married legally in December :3 so excited. I don’t care what you think. I’m pretty freaking happy :3 

I don’t have friends, just acquaintances

It makes me sad that I don’t really have a girl bestfriends anymore. Shes with another crowed of people, and i’m with another crowed of people. I blame myself, I never put in much effort to hang out wither her but now that I do I think its too late.  My guy bestfriend is always doing drugs and hanging out with other people that do drugs and I know its not such a big deal but I worry about him. I get scared to talk to him since he recently is always mad and when people respond to me in a negative or annoyed voice I just shut down or just walk way. I wish I was a more social person. I get socially awkward and I don’t know what to talk about when I’m with a group of friends I just listen and smile quietly. The only one I actually enjoy talking to and feel like they actually listen is my friend Mario and my boyfriend. Mario always laughs at my lame joke and always looks happy to listen to what I have to say. I’m happy I consider my boyfriend my bestfriend, he truly is always there for me and I love spending all the time I can with him but sometimes I just wish I had other people to talk to sometimes.